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依然爱你 - 王力宏

2011-12-31T01:32:00.002+08:00

一闪一闪亮晶晶
留下岁月的痕迹
我的世界的重心
依然还是你

一年一年又一年
飞逝尽在一转眼
唯一永远不改变
是不停的改变

我不像从前的自己
你也有点不像你
但在我眼中你的笑
依然的美丽

日子只能往前走
一个方向顺时钟
不知道还有多久
所以要让你懂

我依然爱你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到最后一定会依然爱你

我不像从前的自己
你也有点不像你
但在我眼中你的笑
依然的美丽

日子只能往前走
一个方向顺时钟
不知道还有多久
所以要让你懂

我依然爱你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到最后一定会依然爱你

我依然爱你或许是命中注定
多年之后任何人都无法代替
那些时光是我这一辈子最美好的
那些回忆依然无法忘记

我依然爱你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到最后一定会依然爱你

你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到永远一定会依然爱你

林育群 - 人海中遇見你

2011-12-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

你的爱值得信赖
你的心靠在身边
只要你在我就有许多梦想
只要你在我就有更多力量

亲爱的我多么幸运
人海中能够遇见你
亲爱的我多么盼望
就从这一刻起和你分享所有感觉
亲爱的我多么幸运
人海中能够遇见你
亲爱的我多么盼望
就从这一刻起和你分享真心的感觉

你的爱没有保留
你的心献给了我
只要你在我就有更多理想
与你同在就好像拥抱天堂

亲爱的我多么幸运
人海中能够遇见你
亲爱的我多么盼望
每一天在这里永远永远有家的感觉
亲爱的我多么幸运
人海中能够遇见你
亲爱的我多么盼望
每一天在这里永远永远有家的感觉

你的爱没有保留
你的心献给了我
只要你在我就有更多理想
与你同在就好像拥抱天堂

亲爱的我多么幸运
人海中能够遇见你
亲爱的我多么盼望
每一天在这里永远永远有家的感觉
亲爱的我多么幸运
人海中能够遇见你
亲爱的我多么盼望
每一天在这里和你分享
家的感觉

那些年

2011-12-03T16:34:00.005+08:00

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

~

2011-03-11T20:25:00.003+08:00

從妳的眼角慢慢地明瞭
我能做的很少
原來妳藏著傷但不想和我聊

妳選的電影像某種預告
不坦白的主角
最後流著眼淚堅持獨自走掉

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道妳留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案卻撕掉不要

呵護地祈禱溫柔地討好
愛能讓人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道我們和你們不能比較
但我的愛多強悍出乎妳預料

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道太美的回憶像副手銬
越是掙脫越纏繞我比妳明瞭

~

2011-02-15T23:00:00.005+08:00

花接受凋零
風接受追尋
心的傷還有一些不要緊
我接受你的決定

你將會被誰抱緊
唱什麼歌哄他開心
我想著天空什麼時候會放晴
地球不曾為誰停一停

你的明天有多快樂不是我的
我們的愛是唱一半的歌
時間把習慣換了
傷口癒合
也撤銷我再想你的資格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人殘念的總是未完成的
我只能唱著一半的歌

我的明天快不快樂都是我的
我們的愛是唱一半的歌
時間把習慣換了
傷口癒合
也撤銷我再想你的資格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人殘念的總是未完成的
另一半的歌

~

2010-12-29T21:48:00.007+08:00

爸爸，你不开心吗？

没有啊

那你刚刚在车上的时候，听儿歌，怎么都不跟我一起唱呢？你平常都会跟我一起唱的啊。

小乐，你知不知道有一种感觉是，你不知道怎么跟一个人相处，因为你不知到他心里在想什么。

你不知道在想什么，你可以问他啊！

不是每件事情都可以用问的，有时候你会担心说，他的答案不是你想要的，会让你很难过。

就像我问慕橙我要吃蛋糕，慕橙就不给我吃。

算了，没事，我们去上课吧。

~

2010-11-25T03:21:00.007+08:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

Audition

2010-11-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

After 1 hour of introducing game setting, style, modes, songs, and establishing the link between audtion to the 'late' 02jam, plus with the aid of some youtube videos...

Wee Clairvoian_42 said (8:50 PM)
eh.
i am playing aft As
cfm
HAHAHA

Woohooos. First persuasion succeeded. LOLS. :D

Fun. I always thought I'd never give in to the korean songs man. Don't know what the heck they're singing. But I've gotta admit some of them in audition is really nicee. x3

Plus, you get to play and listen to new songs at the same time. Alternatively, you can opt for the good oldies, whichever you prefer. :) Kill two birds with one stone!

Oh ya that reminds me, She Diao Ying Xiong Zhuan is now showing in the afternoons! Weekdays i think! I saw it just now! :D But no time to watch though. Too many shows to watch recently. There're loads of them on my want-to-watch-after-A-levels list. I can't believe I even watched Wu Hua Guo for the past few days. T.T

Admit it. Anything beats doing work. At this point in time, especially. Being optimistic can be really tough. :\

Just got my level 8 license yesterday. :D Quite fast considering the short span of time.

Meanwhile.. 3 days left to A levels. Diee.

Always

2010-11-04T15:17:00.004+08:00

There's always a little truth
behind every "just kidding",

a little curiousity
behind every "just wondering",

a little knowledge
behind every "i don't know",

a little emotion
behind every "i don't care".

And a little pain
behind every "it's okay"

And sometimes,
"a little" can be a lot.

how random

2010-10-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

Was just listening to 933 on radio when I heard two songs.

The first one's 第一天 by Sun Yan Zi.

The other one is 最后的那一天 by Li Jiu Zhe. One of his new songs and gets nicer the more you listen to it.

I just found it a little bit funny when they were played one after the other.

One's totally sad and the other's crazily happy.

When played consecutively, the contrast speaks volumes about the ... contrast itself. Hah.

After As!

2010-10-23T14:26:00.009+08:00

I'm leaving all the emo till after A levels. Yep, for once. Can't let my mood, and anything else that affects it, affect my results further.

For once, I really needa start studying seriously. Like really mug. Someone please teach me how to concentrate and sit down for hours without moving around or letting my mind wander.

Approximately two week left to clear about one and a half year's untouched load. Shall start off learning JC1 Math. Lecture one: standard curves. =.+ Studying can be quite challenging especially with loads of unfilled blanks in lecture notes. No point saying or grumbling that I should have paid attention, listened attentively, worked really hard right from the start ... etc, but thank god there's something called friends. Or rather, thank friends. Hah. Really.

I'll promise to be back for you after the As.

And lastly, 加油 to whoever's reading this, if you're taking your A levels too.

And to everyone else.

Press on.

So long.

O.o

2010-10-17T20:44:00.001+08:00

Went to check my blog's statistics for last week.

Country Uniques

SINGAPORE 72.53%
CANADA 8.79%
AUSTRALIA 5.49%
LEBANON 5.49%
MACEDONIA, THE FORMER YUGOSLAV REPUBLIC OF 2.2%
UNITED KINGDOM 2.2%
GREECE 1.1%
JAPAN 1.1%
UNITED STATES 1.1%

Wow.

Still wondering if I should attend school tomorrow or not. Hai.

Farewell

2010-10-15T16:35:00.002+08:00

不圆满的结局

Goodbye AJC? Hah.

relief

2010-10-04T20:46:00.001+08:00

Yay. I received an email from the UN office. I don't have to study or work anymore! :D ... =.=

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

UNITED NATIONS OFFICEFUNDS RELIEF DEPARTMENT

You have been awarded a total sum of £1,450,000.00 GBP by the United Nations Funds Relief Organization, your payment would be made through UK Master Card Payment Center this is an instruction passed by the United Nations in respect to all over delayed payment, debt re-scheduling and defrauded victims.

We will send you an International Swift Master Card that has been approved in your favor, with valued sum of £1,450,000.00 GBP (One Million Four Hundred And Fifty Thousand Great British Pound), which you are to use in accessing your fund in any ATM Stand or cash point location worldwide and remember that the maximum withdrawal daily limit is Fifty Thousand Great British Pounds (£50,000.00 GBP).

Kindly provide the details below for delivery.
1. Valid Delivery Address.
2. Full Names.
3. Phone Number.

Reply to this email address: unzonaloffice304@gmail.com
Telephone: +44 70457 45898, +447024022518, +447024054722

Regards,Dr. Anderson Spencer
Foreign Service Directorate.
Contact Email: unzonaloffice304@gmail.com

如果这就是爱情

2010-10-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

你做了选择对的错的
我只能承认心是痛的
怀疑你舍得我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了何必再强忍
我没有选择我不再完整
原来最后的吻如此冰冷
你只能默认我要被割舍
眼看着你走了

如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

灰色的天空无法猜透
多余的眼泪无法挽留
什么都牵动感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人原来不是我
我不要你走我不想放手
却又不能够奢求同情的温柔
你可以自由我愿意承受
把昨天留给我

如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

不如

2010-09-26T19:57:00.004+08:00

I think myspace bought imeem over so now i can't edit that playlist at the left column. but anyway here's supposed to be the newest addition to that playlist. Pause the ipod playlist at the left.. before clicking play on the video below.

下着雨
让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音

看着你
看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口
隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口
也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我
变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落
让满地鲜红

说你爱我
变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

gone

2010-09-11T13:38:00.005+08:00

~

"... good in its own time,
though that time is gone"

~

:(

2010-09-02T20:47:00.005+08:00

~

So everyone in this whole wide world can be sad.

Except for me.

Because I'm a guy.

Because everthing that I get sad over is irrational.

Because the reasons why I'm sad is always lame.

And, because it's freaking irritating and bloody sickening when I'm sad.

~

瞬间变成永恒的魔法

2010-09-01T01:15:00.004+08:00

~

时间虽然不能够倒转，但是摄影是让瞬间变成永恒的魔法。

~

Hall

2010-08-31T19:27:00.003+08:00

First thing i wanna say is. My leg muscle hasn't ached this way for ages. For the first time ever, i think I completed touring and re-touring the entire of 3 or 4 shopping malls within hours. Okay, maybe it's not touring. It's more like scanning for terrorist-planted-bomb inside-out. Side-effects are being felt now. Hai. :\

The second thing I wanna say is. Happy Teachers Day? LOL. I guess probably no other teacher will be free enough to visit this out-of-the-place place. Hah.

Teacher's day is not too bad I guess. Better than expected? So perhaps we should all set low expectations. Even though I don't really know what was happening on stage in the hall. :) And ACES Day. (<-- is this how you even spell it) Somehow the school decided to combine and press the two together day to save time and precious lessons? Or to distract students from some secret meeting. There weren't even any teacher to catch the latecomers. Lucky people who get to sleep a while more than me. =.= Hahas. Sorry sorry used to be a super irritating song. It still is. Because I don't know what they were talking about.

And third thing is. I guess today marks the END OF ALL MY CCA DUTIES. Why the shit am I still entangled in all these mess. Damn. Suddenly realised hell is just two weeks away. Going to eat dinner soon. At home. On a weekday. Which is quite rare. Hah. But that means I've got to wash the dishes again! :\

And watch xia yi zhan later. It's getting nicer day by day. And after that sleep. And for the twentieth time, I'll swear that I start on Vectors tomorrow.

Hopefully there won't be a twenty first!

cyclical disaster

2010-08-29T21:36:00.008+08:00

Kinda tired.

Since when was I reduced to an answer machine, too.

And certain other things. So flawed and plagued with problems that correcting them just feels like a stupid waste of both effort and time. How more tiring can it be.

Why must there always be something to spoil everything.

Seriously.

Tired.

Even the things that used to be special aren't so special anymore. Isn't that funny, and sad, too?

Completed the whole campagin of Modern Warfare 2 and even some special ops. But I don't even feel like playing it now. :(

I'd rather sleep.

Probably going to just watch shows and play bejeweled and drown myself in songs till the end of college year 2. It's just about 80 more days anyway.

On a brighter note. I'm probably going on a tour after A levels. A temporary relief from everything else here.

It's supposed to be a happy post but it didnt turn out that way. So long.

fainting goats

2010-08-14T15:51:00.005+08:00

Kinda completed half of the campaign mode already. At this rate I think I'd have completed the campaign plus finished all the difficulty levels before A levels. Hai. I needa start doing homeworkkk.

And I think I've decided on not going for the year-end CIP already. Despite all the attractive freebies. I wanna reserve some time, after A levels and before prom, for myself.
给自己一点时间, 找回自己.

I guess it's probably around 100 more days before JC life ends. Time doesn't just fly. It disappears too. Haha. Does it still matter whether the time left is maximised?.

Just finished listening to ALL the songs on the playlist here. Heh. Yeps. Individually they may or may not be nice, depending on when you listen to them. But stringed together, they kinda tell a story. From the middle of the story to the very beginning. Hah. What kind of story is this. Probably nobody other than me, except for one or two, really listens.

Anyway, I was watching some videos yesterday on fainting, or myotonic goats. Looks retarded but adorable at the same time! Haha. I'll post the really nice mv some other time. When I feel more like it. Heh. One sample here. Haha. Stiffen your legs and start fainting now.

And then later I shall play and rest first. Complete one or two more missions. And cut my fingernails lols. I swear I'll do some work after dinner later.

Tried to embed the video here a few times but it just doesn't seem to work. Hah. Nevermind! Just youtube "fainting videos" if you wanna see it. Enjoy.

~

[ 近在眼前，远在天边 ]

call of duty

2010-08-11T00:22:00.004+08:00

OH MY FREAKING GOD I CAN FINALLY PLAY CALL OF DUTY 6 MODERN WARFARE 2 ON MY COM NOW. EVERYDAY. WOOHOO.

Just updated the video card. It's that simple. Why didn't I do it earlier.

Yay.

Training starts today. 24/7.

Only kidding. Lols. Still gotta wake up and attend school tomorrow. Not forgetting the papers piling up on my table, and those threatening to explode my file. Darn. I'd rather explode the grenades. That's more like my call of duty. :)

Needa prepare for National Service! My undying patriotism for Singapore survives beyond just the National Day. Haha.

See ya around. Taata.

9th AUG

2010-08-09T00:05:00.006+08:00

And of course. [continued from the bottom post o.o due to the need to separate 8th and 9th of August lols.]

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (:

Kinder Surprise

2010-08-08T23:51:00.003+08:00

Hehe. Just found a nice mv which I shall reserve for the 400th post. Some song which I already liked quite long ago when it was first released, but then I just havent seen the mv then. Seeing it makes me wanna listen to the song more. You'll know why later.

~

Saturday:

Kinda relaxed. Havent done much. Bejeweled. Effectively awake for only 6 hours plus. That's really short.

Today:

I can't believe I did Econs beer case study first of all homework. Also the last. Haha. Damn it. Loads of them are still waiting for me on the desk when I wake up tomorrow (and every other day). This is like the first time I'm doing Econs first but it's easier, because I don't really have to worry whether I get it wrong or what. Hah.

Then went to the optician. Back to the usual one. Guess what. My degree decreased LOL. Woohoo. Must be the work of bejeweled and computer. Conversely, my brother's increased. Haha. But somehow mine's still deeper than his. Damn it. Wait a few more years and my eyesight might be perfect without any Lasik surgery. :)

New Specs coming soon. [NC16]

And then went to a birthday party at my younger cousin's house. Totally like a childcare centre lawls. Busy eating kinder surprise eggs while they rip the toys apart. I think I gained at least one or two kgs. Chocolate muffins and stuff. Heh.

No time for work. I'm feeling sleepy already.

Tomorrow:

National Day. Not gonna be at home. Promised someone to watch the national day parade at night for some stupid reason. So yeps. [Edited on national day: clever reason]

The day after tomorrow:

The only day I have to do all the stupid homework teachers dumped on me. Great. If everything goes right I should be enjoying a meal at Sakura. Haha. One of my favourite makan places! :D I think there's even a 50% off ... if anyone's interested. Hurry! I'm not paid to advertise this by the way. Haha.

Goodnight!

PS: I just realised Kinder Surprise and Sakura has similar colours to our Singapore flag. Same for a little part of my specs. What a sneak peak. Haha..

伯樂

2010-08-07T01:52:00.002+08:00

A delicate brew of authentic premium black tea with real peach juice. Made from ripe, plump peaches, the blend of sweet peach aroma with the refined flavour of tea is perfect. This tantalising fusion contain Vitamin C and natural antioxidants, combining goodness and taste. A refreshing peach enjoyment you simply must have.

And so I'm having it now. Wahahaha. Ice peach tea. A must have. Damn it. I think I'm addicted. Gonna drink it daily for the next few days to keep myself strong and healthy with all the vitamin C and antioxidants. What an excuse haha. I don't even know what antioxidants are. Reducing agents? O.o Can't be bothered. It tastes good anyway. Sweet.

Hmm. Reason why I'm here is because .. I just can't get above 400k this week for Bejeweled. And for the first time I got sick of hearing ... "One minute... Go!" There's something wrong with me. Rawr. Must be too tired ba. Keep stoning and can't match gems properly.

And kinda sick of shows on the TV. First was the zui huo da dang or unriddle whatever. Haha. Can't believe I sat through. Then got stuck to the sofa and continued some other hong kong police show (I think) again. It's always the same faces. Hah. And saw this movie during the commercial breaks. Staring Liu Yi Fei (which i remember by Ling Er from xian jian qi xia zhuan, another show that I'm going to rewatch after As hahaha) and Wang Li Hong I think?! Haha. Doesn't seem/sound as interesting as the idea of Secret 2 which my friend (and also a hardcore Jay Chou fan) said! WHEN EXACTLY IS IT COMING OUT? Better not be during the A level period siaaa. Rawr. If not I think I might go mad. Haha.

But anyway, I kinda forgoed the chance to watch some movie with class today. I hope they went to watch despicable me or something else other than The Last Airbender. Haha. Why?! Don't know. It makes me itch more if they really went to watch The Last Airbender thinggi. Urgh. Cause it looks quite cool and was the only one that caught my attention. Hah. Even though I don't really know what it is about. Probably gotta wait till it shows on channel 5 two or three years later. Lols.

Came back home after lunch at AMK hub and finished up the very last ice cream I found in my freezer. It's always the last piece that nobody wants to eat anyway. So... I gladly did a clean job. Ba ta gei gan le. Woohoo. Peach Tea. Ice Cream. Now I just needa go grab some chocolate ice blended from sweet talk or somewhere to complete the impossible trinity. LOLS. Don't know correct or not, but I heard this term during Econs lecture and it sounded quite cool. Though I don't remember what it's for la. Haha.

Then, I noticed this device with a white smooth outer appearance. Damn. It's too bulky to be an apple macbook. On closer observation the word reads: Electrolux (or something like that). I wished it was some electroporator. Even though how useless it might be doing in the kitchen, it still sounds cool having one at home.

And I just finished watching a very nice Taiwanese drama series. Today! Wished it lasted longer or had more episodes or something. Might start scouting for a new one when I am no longer so into that show. Hah.

Feeling tired again. Better go sleep before I start talking nonsense lol. I wanna go somewhere this long break. And sleep dao gou shuang. Haha. Still quite pissed that the one-month-Call-of-Duty-6-download failed to install properly because of a video card that isnt good enough. Rawr. Empty promises. Shall just play it after A levels and stick to Bejeweled, shows, and music for now. Heh.

Talking about music. I just added a new song into my mp3 today! Not a new song but still sounds nice. I just didn't know the title the other time. Haha. Or maybe it sounded better today. To be honest didn't like Yoga Lin's voice at first. Until I heard bei ying on dou niu yao bu yao. Hah. Did I say this before. Shall end this post with it anyway. :)

~

愛你的那一個傷你的那一個
誰才是你愛情中的伯樂
放棄了這一個然後等待著下一個
最後哪一個讓你最捨不得

感謝不能讓別人來說
你給過我的　她們是做不到的
那時候的幸福是真的　雖然過去了
我們也都經歷了

釋懷教育著仇恨　和平勸著天下人
故事發生了便住下了　不管好的壞的
你讓我成長了　就算是痛得值得

愛你的那一個　傷你的那一個
誰才是你愛情中的伯樂
放棄了這一個　然後等待著下一個
一個個過客過得快不快樂

愛你的那一個　傷你的那一個
誰才是你愛情中的伯樂
放棄了這一個　然後等待著下一個
別太多過客祝你早日快樂

離開時別忘了　看看眼前的人
流淚記住了　還是微笑祝福著

Will add to playlist later. Wo bu xiang nian is still ever awesome.

But my ulcer still stings like crap. *bite lips*

blow wind blow

2010-08-01T15:40:00.002+08:00

The weather's damn nice today. The wind's so cooling.
But somehow it feels like something's still missing.

I feel like sleeping! (>.<)

green.

2010-08-01T09:50:00.009+08:00

Alright. I came and saw all the comments yesterday but then there were too many to reply all yesterday. Like havent had this many per day in a long long time.

Solved one, and only one, complex question after staring at it for damn damn long. Sweeping and mopping floors. Slept the afternoon. Plus watched Huo Yuan Jia again, for the don't-know-how-manyth time. That sums up a saturday. Heh.

Timely Reminders from the show, to myself.
1) Winning isn't everything.
2) Don't let your arrogance get the better of you.

I hope I can complete more work today than yesterday. By that I am refering to homework and not housework lol! Big difference man. Seems kinda easy to do anything more than 1 math question ... 2 right? ... until I start doing something. Sian. Thank goodness those accumulated homework debts don't charge interest rates. Phew.

Now for replies, before going bejeweled a while and then breakfast. Freaking hungry!
From bottom to top.

~

1 Aug 10, 10:43
Jamie: opps.. are they called spammers anw?
O.o they? no ba. Haha.

31 Jul 10, 23:15
emmy: It's so disappointing because that person "see you around" probably someone you know, another case of social hypocrisy!
Emmy? O.o Yep maybe. It's all too common nowdays isn't it. But again, I don't think I even regard this person as a hi-bye friend. Heh.

31 Jul 10, 16:26
jamie: lols.. i seem to be missing out on a lot of fun here suaning people.. lols.. who is this sucker??? hate blog spammers
Fun? Why would it be fun to suan people. Lols.

31 Jul 10, 12:39
weijie aka kira: sry for the spam wy but it's not worth one post for such loser ... hehe just remember loser like jcian always say others are closet mugger when he/she is one due to jealousy
No la. you're not spamming at all. :)

31 Jul 10, 12:36
weijie aka kira: and hor just ignore the jcian craps because ppl's jealousy just make ur results look better haha must get used to it
Ya. I'm finally a victim of envy. Woohoos. :D

31 Jul 10, 12:33 weijie aka kira: yo wy lol long time didnt come ur blog den got a fight in tagboard LOL anyway grats for ur two fabulous results and jy? remember to clear the hw debt (Im trying hard to clear mine too >.<) WEIJIE!!. Heyys. Hmm. Not so fabulous actually, but hopefully can remain like that or better? Still got lots of J1 work to catch up with the rest of you leh. jy to you and jy too. Haha. Like so different from primary school sia. Last time can clear all on the day they give. Now keep procrastinating lol.

31 Jul 10, 09:59
agnes: Why don’t you go and date your lecture notes and get a gazillion of As to accompany your pathetic 2As and stop darkening this blog with your spam.
Wa. This then is fierce lei agnes. O.o Aiya if he want to tag just let him tag ba. It's free. And all great people are hated anyway. So I need at least one person to hate me. Hah.

31 Jul 10, 09:59
agnes: jcian, you got 2As very good is it? haolian for what, when you’re so freaking humji, and I presume lonely and miserable enough to tag people’s blog anonymously.
I think he's got something inside that would strangle him if he doesnt release and express it ba.

31 Jul 10, 07:20
kerissa: jcian sounds like a girl.. i bet she's jealous of you (: woon, just ignore her (: and she'll keep quiet. hee.
heys kerissa. Hmm. Yea I think so too. Alright. I hope it's not a guy sounding like a girl though. Heh.

31 Jul 10, 00:15
ZS: You might have gotten 2 As, but you failed in your character upbringing attacking ppl online.Go hug ur A level cert to sleep. (woony sorry if i sound too harsh on ur blog. cant stand this type of ppl)
Lols. Eh. No vulgarities can le. Nevermind about him la. Haha. Or else I delete your tag! Only kidding. :) We needa meet soon! Lols.

30 Jul 10, 23:46
ZS: jcian, the way u guailan ppl online shows. I can guailan woony cuz i know him better, at least better than a person who only makes superficial judgements.
YOU CAN GUAILAN ME? Lols. Okay. you can la. Then I go and guailan your ... LOLS. kidding!!

30 Jul 10, 21:42
jcian: i see you around but you dont even dare to speak up! anw. ive got both As.
Hmm. Does that mean you're dying to speak to me or ... ? Cause at the very least I'll say wave to those I know. Try not to be envious of them too, otherwise there may be too many names to jot down in your handbook. Aww, nobody congratulated you on it yet? I'll be the first then. Congrats. :]

30 Jul 10, 21:15
agnes: wah woony so fierce!
Like that considered fierce meh. o.o

~

Can't believe I spent one hour to publish this post. Hah.

crap of flies

2010-07-30T17:40:00.005+08:00

Don't you find it irritating when annoymous people come to your blog, read about things that make them envious (or maybe they already were/are in the first place), and start saying that you went around spreading things just because they came here and see things they don't like. Funny and childish at the same time, at best.

Seriously, nobody would have known how envious you are if you didn't speak (like usually) (or tag in this case).

~

I thought you were interesting at your first comment.
Now you just look and sound plain stupid to me.

If your life really sucks so much, create a page for yourself and you can start rambling there.

Oh I forgot. It's either you don't know how to create one (you don't have to admit though), or don't really have much time left right? Hurry. Bury yourself into your books. Time's ticking!

I tried take time off doing homework (since you think i don't have enough homework debt already. LOL. JOKE), to help find some tips regarding how to cope with envy and that sort for you. But there doesn't seem to be much solution (or should I say hope) to such a chronic form of envy. If it really gets worse I'd advise you to consult a psychiatrist. I'm sure your family and friends will too, unless ... you're even envious of them as well?

And of course, don't show your name or admit at this point of time, because, it's not like you don't look bad enough in real life already. Whether you know it or not. Hah.

~

And apart from entertaining all this nonsense... for the very last time. Hmm. Nothing much I guess.

Except it's kinda sad that days are striked off the calendar so very very fast. Just had a dream just now. I thought it really was real. Until I woke up. Hah. Still wishing that time will move backwards even when it seems so impossible. Hai. Headache!

Each and Every Line

2010-07-22T20:35:00.004+08:00

某個城某條街某一條小巷
某一個晚上某閣樓微微燈光
某個人默默關上某心房某扇窗
跟沒有人說晚安

夜從前從來沒這麼長
床荒涼的就像沒有邊疆
失眠是枕頭之上無盡的流浪
天永遠不亮

我不想念不想念他模樣
我不想念他肩膀輕擁著我肩膀
我不想念他吻著我臉龐
把永遠說成一顆糖

某空港某車站某個下一站
某一扇車窗某風景喚醒惆悵
某南方搖搖晃晃某海洋某艘船
誰沒妄想有天堂

當人活成了一棵仙人掌
掌心的淚卻還是滾燙
每當撫摸那些天真致命傷
恨不能健忘

我不想念不想念那時光
那些快樂和悲傷卻總在我身旁
我只願長夜將盡天快亮
讓想念的歌不再唱

我只願長夜將盡天快亮
讓想念的歌不再唱
讓想念的歌不再傷
讓想念的歌不要再唱

Why won't you just die away.

Why haven't you. :(

~

Tired.
Like never so much before.

宽恕

2010-07-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

面对面坐着眼神不屑一顾
挤出的笑容看起来好突兀
我走错一步坠入万丈深谷
还是会想起你的荒唐糊涂
针刚刺在心上血流已如注
背叛了幸福拿爱当赌注
曾把感情放逐何时能结束
遇到你我想停止游牧让爱归真返璞
漂泊会落幕承诺说得那么铭心刻骨
你的眼泪让我无助
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱死在半途
听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟我真的领悟
伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

还是会想起你的荒唐糊涂
针刚刺在心上血流已如注
背叛了幸福拿爱当赌注
曾把感情放逐何时能结束
遇到你我想停止游牧让爱归真返璞
漂泊会落幕承诺说得那么铭心刻骨
你的眼泪让我无助
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱死在半途
听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟我真的领悟
伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆
你的眼泪让我无助
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱死在半途
听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟我真的领悟
伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

很多事情，还是留在记忆就好了

2010-07-17T13:42:00.003+08:00

Results slips are back. Woohoo. At least now I have 2 subjects above the 95th percentile. Haha. But honestly those 2 could have easily been 99th to 100th. I should probably blame myself instead of the crappy compre marks and screwed up last-part of the papers as usual.

Though the permanent B grade in the same row as Project Work stinks like shit. Hai. Accompanied by U grades which aren't really as unsightly as that B*, because they are only transient, right. I think so. Hopefully.

And, the teacher's comments are really encouraging, much more than the grades themselves. And they are not biased okay. :) All except one fu yan one liner from one particular non-science subject. Lols. So uncustomised and probably copied and pasted a hundred times. But still must find something to give all the teachers this coming teacher's day! Just got reminded of it while viewing a timetable sent to us (or me) by my chemistry teacher. Was that a subtle hint. Hah. But she is a good teacher.

And, I've decided to go for prom night aka dinner and dance. Its kinda pricey compared to my secondary school price, but not so much after comparing to others ba. Heh. No need for stupid excuses about going overseas.

And and, I FOUND A CAT JUMPING OUTSIDE MY WINDOW LEDGE JUST NOW. What the freak. Seriously. When I opened the window it ran right. Maybe in the neighbours house now, eating up and tearing apart all the harmful stuff they keep. Yay. Rarely use "hate", since it's quite a strong and emotionally charged word. But yes, I hate that neighbour who SMOKES ALMOST ALL THE TIME. Okay maybe not sure, but sometimes for sure when he's at home. And it drives me hopping mad and crazy and frantically covering my nose with my shirt. Makes me feel better like filtering out some bad stuff from the smoke, but to be honest I still can smell it. Yuck.

Anyway, I was finding some excuses to reason with myself why watching shows is good for me.

because....

1) they allow you to think and reflect.

2) they let you see the possible consequences of things you might have thought of doing so that you can dismiss the stupid things that you wanted to do initially after watching.

3) you can see things from both sides (or rather different perspectives) more easily than in real life.

4) somehow, you'll tend to know that more often than not, the cause of problems are usually misunderstandings and nothing else.

5) it momentarily takes you out of reality and freezes all that worrying about stupid homework and grades.

6) it's simply enjoyable.

~

会伤心。会难过。会累。但我想，最不会后悔的方法，还是珍惜。

~

Chinese sounds nicer than English at times. And not just at times. Certain other times too. Hah. Even though I have to admit I'm not as fluent in Chinese than in English.

I think. I haven't written such a proper post for a long time ba. The numbers at the counter still keep jumping somehow. Hmm. Okay. It's lunch time, but I'm not eating at Pepper Lunch. Might decide to do some work when I come home from lunch later if my mood and energy-level permits. LOLS. Especially lot of homework this weekend, not to mention all the J1 and some J2 work which I've accumulated in big debts.

Goodbye for now, folks. Haha. See you next time. :)

PS: Don't you find the song there ( at the left ) nice. Lyrics below.

lyrics up

2010-07-16T18:20:00.002+08:00

你一直說的那個公園已經拆了
還記得盪著鞦韆日子就飛起來
漫漫的下午陽光都在臉上撒野
你那傻氣我真是想念

那時候小小的你還沒學會嘆氣
誰又會想到他們現在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的樣子倒是一點沒變
時間走了誰還在等呢

這杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼傷感
世界太複雜你說單純很難我當然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的夢從來不大
我們沒有在一起至少還像情侶一樣
我痛的瘋的傷的在你面前哭得最慘

我知道你也不能帶我回到那個地方
你說你現在很好而且喜歡回憶很長
我們沒有在一起至少還像家人一樣
總是遠遠關心遠遠分享

那條路走呀走呀走呀總要回家
兩隻手握著晃呀晃呀捨不得放
你不知道吧後來後來我都在想
跟你走吧管它去哪呀

我們沒有在一起至少還像朋友一樣
你遠遠的關心其實更長

haii

2010-07-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth.

Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences.

It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

~

:\

2010-07-10T22:26:00.001+08:00

I just realised, that story-fable already actualised. Quite some time ago.

mid years

2010-07-09T23:57:00.005+08:00

Mid year results are back. At least 2 so far. Chem and Bio. I think.. Approximately 75% of the cohort obtained a U grade for both papers. Hah. Why all that disappointment. Exams aren't everything. Expectations again, isn't it.

It's nicer to watch drama shows.
At least when you get tired, there's always the option of pressing the stop button and continue later, or the idea of abandoning it altogether.

And I think.. I've been talking lots of crap recently. Hah.

While everyone else is counting down to A levels, I'm counting down to the end of A levels. Hai.

[也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药]

Edit

2010-07-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

[Correction] It's two nice emo songs. Hahahaha.
And it's nice when they put hard-to-describe feelings into words and lyrics.

anyway

2010-07-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

kinda happy that I found a nice sad song. heh.

shall post it here when i dun feel like posting it anymore.

ham

2010-07-01T13:01:00.000+08:00

Just came back home from a super big rain. After touring Yew Tee Point for quite some time with 2 other classmates. Heh. It's been pouring heavily for this few days. And I can't find any reason to be happy. Except maybe relief for tomorrow after the the Mid Year Exams officially end. Woohooo. Just that temporary period between end of exams and receiving of results. Hai.

Well anyway the main point is. I CAN'T FIND THE HAMSTER ON MY WAY BACK HOME. It's a winter white hamster. Like my very first one.... Arrggh. The poor little thing:
1) must have been soaked in the rain, maybe even drowning since floods have been occuring around various places in Singapore. And it's so damn small-sized. :\
2) eated up by some crazy cats or dogs. But that's life after all.
3) smashed into pulp by some cyclist or have its bones crushed a blind or careless man. Kinda sad. :(

Anyway, rewinding back to morning. I was on my way to school. Earlier than usual. Was rushing like mad in fear of the consequences. Which ended up to be...

Okay back to topic. To cut short everything. I was just cycling on my way to the mrt station when i noticed some thing crawling on the ground. So kinda guilty that i nearly killed a life. Hah. But of course my wheel didn't even touch it. Or it might have ended up like my econs lecture notes. :( Anyway, it was damn cute when I stopped cause it came to the wheel and my shoe and tried to climb up lols. But couldn't find anywhere to keep it cause:
1) I didnt have the time to rush back home .. even though I was early. Rawr.
2) I can't leave it in my bike's basket and go to school... later people complain about me abusing animals by depriving it of food under the hot sun.
3) Can't possibly put in my pocket though i really feel like putting... it might just start biting things inside. Ouch. Or the invigilator for the chemistry exam (which I'm going to flunk for real) might notice something moving in my pocket and mistake it for a form of cheating in exam.
4) Put in my bag? I dont know, will suffocate or starve to death.

So aiya. Anyway suddenly don't feel like continuing this post le. Bye.

early

2010-06-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I went to bed early.

Today's going to be the second time in a long time that I'm going to bed early.

Tomorrow's going to be the third.

The day after tomorrow's going to be the fourth...

Goodnight.

is it because

2010-06-25T18:35:00.000+08:00

everything's a tiring cycle.

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭
为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了电全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈像一个句点

and someday it will stop somewhere.

if

2010-06-24T15:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I think how different it would have been... Hah. Forget it.

Okay anyway I've decided. Let's just see how long I can remain so decided.

Brrr

2010-06-18T20:07:00.001+08:00

Super sick and shivering like shit when I'm seventeen years and eleven months old.

mentally ill

2010-06-15T00:51:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I just can't stop thinking and worrying. Hai.

Hai

2010-06-12T15:26:00.005+08:00

Hah. I didn't know you still come here.
Why do you still read my blog. O.o

Don't know why. Feel like randomly posting one post.

Just had a shower after getting drenched from getting caught in the rain while cycling again. Somehow rainwater feels much colder than tapwater.

Different people all love the rain for different reasons.

Initially thought I wanted to read my Econs notes while Slow Sister can take forever to finish up her meal. Yep... I confess I have temporary crush on Econs. Shh. When it started to rain I tried to protect my already wet Econs notes, which fell right onto the ground full of water puddles and my treaded wheels just rolled over, crushing and tearing everything beneath it.

So that was the end of the few lecture notes of unit 3. Their remainings show nothing but few unrecognisable words. Obviously can't be filed into the file anymore since the shape is totally out and the punched holes are gone, but now with more holes and the surface even has texture. I guess I have no choice but to abandon that stack of notes.

Can't concentrate and I don't know what I'm talking about right now. The burning smell from the house directly opposite and noise from within my home, coming from inconsiderate parties are all getting on my nerves. Limit broken. I'm going deaf and suffocating like crap. Seriously no mood to drink ice milo and listen to the rain anymore. Going to bed to sleep and lock myself up. Goodnite.

Can't you just let me have some peace.

~

街灯下的橱窗有一种落寞的温暖
吐气在玻璃上画著妳的模样
开著车漫无目的的转弯不知要去那个地方
闹区的电视墙到底有谁在看

白杨木影子被拉长像我对妳的思念走不完
原来我从未习惯妳已不在我身旁
街道的铁门被拉上只剩转角霓虹灯还在闪
这城市的小巷雨下一整晚

妳撑把小纸伞叹姻缘太婉转
雨落下雾茫茫问天涯在何方
午夜笛笛声残偷偷透透过窗
烛台前我嘛还在想
小舢舨划啊划小纸伞遮雨也遮月光

白杨木影子被拉长像我对妳的思念走不完
原来我从未习惯妳已不在我身旁
街道的铁门被拉上只剩转角霓虹灯还在闪
这城市的小巷雨下一整晚

The part where he sighs sounds exceptionally nice and its right-on-the-spot. Hai.

我落淚，情緒零碎

2010-06-04T20:51:00.001+08:00

地上断了翅的蝶
不想自由地蔓延
爱原来更心碎
都可以更细节
田野风绕过几条街
秋天收了满地的落叶
于是又一整夜
感情的句子都枯萎凋谢

我不想再写
随手撕下这一页
原来是跟离别
可以没有结尾
憔悴后你会跟着写
于是我把诗折叠
有几重感觉
挑一束白玫瑰
你将爱退回

我不落泪忍住感觉
分手在起风这个季节
哭久了会累
也只是别人的以为
冷的咖啡
我清醒着一再续杯
我落泪情绪零碎
你的世界一幕幕纷飞
门外的蔷薇
带刺伤人也很直接
过去被翻阅
结局满天的风雪

哦...我不想写
随手撕下这一页
原来是跟离别
可以没有结尾
憔悴后你会跟着写
于是我把诗折叠
有几重感觉
挑一束白玫瑰
你将爱退回

我不落泪忍住感觉
分手在起风这个季节
哭久了会累
也只是别人的以为
冷的咖啡我清醒着一再续杯
我落泪情绪零碎
你的世界一幕幕纷飞
门外的蔷薇
带刺伤人也很直接
过去被翻阅
结局满天的风雪

It Rains All Night

2010-05-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

so short

2010-05-23T08:42:00.001+08:00

Lots of events. Lots of happenings. But I've decided to stop blogging for the time being! Perhaps because there are loads of other things and stuff to tend to. (: And I need to really sleeeeeeeep. Hah. Maybe next time! So long.

好久不见

2010-05-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

好久不见你还好嘛
你的小狗长大了吗
我的围巾还围着吗
我的相片都丢了吧啊
我剪不到后面头发
这个借口还不错罢
一把剪刀一堆废话
还不是想求求你回来吧

~~~~~~台语~~~~~~~

是我不好
我没有紧紧抱住你
你说泪流着很危险
如果等你一起
流下不让同情发现

我对天空这颗那颗流星
大喊后会不会有奇迹
就算做朋友也没关系
为你改变了自己该不认识自己
不是我保持了自信
只是我拿出真心
开业不用这个那个香槟
去我的餐厅
点蜡烛顺便吃个甜品
细数你大肆不联络的韵律
冷战早已经不流行
赶快回来到我心里

Venus

2010-05-16T16:30:00.002+08:00

My gawd. I seriously need some swift fly-killing machine to annihilate those irritating flies. Right now i'm only equipped with water for their suicidal attacks and a fly swatter which is quite a good 1-on-1 weapon because my mastery of it is nearly maxed out. I need something that can allow me to do an area-of-effect (AoE) attack!

I think. I'm really going to get some nasty, powerful and super badass venus flytraps and plant them around my room. Heh. Those carnivorous ones that can really stretch and swallow them alive. So coool.

For now I'll just stick to my one-handed weapon.

fly away

2010-05-14T17:29:00.002+08:00

这一次是我自己为自己下的决定
很小心你说慢慢来别怕来不及
如果我还有一点点不安或者迟疑
我不会对你的反应那么好奇

多远啊其实也很不愿意
其实也不想回忆
谁没等到错过了流星

我们啊交集在这意外的假期
一定那里见过你
一定曾经梦见你

Fly Away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛
看着你就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定
Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
有一个人有一颗心早已经默默之中在那里

这一次问我自己都说我毫不悔意
爱上你终于我发现我还有勇气
唯一我觉得遗憾的是我不够自信
不了解你说那一些话的用意

几乎是所有时间在想你
快乐之后是压抑
有没有过这样的呼吸
幸福啊只要一个眼神的交集
我们拥抱着自己我们渴望着相遇

Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
是你的人是你的心日日夜夜陪我在这里

Sieve it and sort it out yourself. Heh.

It's funny.

And Fish Leong has got to be one of the best female singers. (:

wei qiang.

2010-05-13T17:21:00.003+08:00

Ah. Nowadays I'd rather spend time sleeping than blogging. Fell asleep the moment i touched my bed yesterday at around seven. I need a hell lot of energy to walk to and from the mrt. Argh. And i always perspire like mad the moment i reach the mrt platform in the morning. There's something really wrong with the weather these days! Even my datalogger in school says so. Rawr.

Talking about mrt. By the time the train reaches yew tee there're very few seats left. Damn sian. Then everyone rushes in and grabs all the seats. And they sit in weird positions. Which is quite annoying sometimes.

The way home from mrt is so long compared to in the past. Heh. So I have lots of time to look around and think about random stuff. Random stuff which aren't so random after all. It's always the same few random stuff.

And my homework. It's piling up like crazy and I don't even know nuts about last year's stuff, let alone start on econs. Freaking tiring. CCA is there, but not there. SPAs are coming and I'll be freaking disappointed again and again if I can't finish the paper. Worse still, bombarded with those bees.

Meeting deadlines is one horrible thing. Meeting expectations is another.

And the list goes on.

Don't think I'll have much time to write nonsense on this space here in the next few days/weeks/maybe even months.

I'm going for my dental appointment wihch has been rescheduled thirty times now. Jurong Point. I don't even know where the heck the dental clinic is. Shall go walk around. Walking is fun though, when you forget all the other stuff that you were supposed to do.

So long.

PS: Jay chou's album is coming out next week!

And I'm too tired to check 3 times for spelling or typo errors like I always did last time. Sorry!

raqr

2010-05-09T19:00:00.006+08:00

I'm so busy that I don't even have time to blog despite the series of many many events that has happened over the past two weeks. Rawr. Can't organise my thoughts well these days. Still adapting to my new home and trying to adapt to the crazy weather and everything else.

Feeling.
Weird.
Sad.
Sian diao.
Tired.
Sick.
Crazy.
Stupid.
Petrified.
Stoned.
Evaporating into thin air.

Feel like.
Sleeping.
Pulling my hair.
Tearing my head apart.
Throwing homework and tutorials out of the window.
Eating lots of icecream.
Having someone to knock me out by a karate chop on the neck.
Time passes so fast and slow.

I feel like crap.
Don't even feel like faking a smile, or correcting the title of this post to rawr.

Zzz.

Knocked

2010-04-28T18:03:00.002+08:00

Kenna knocked by a super heavy metal water bottle on my head yesterday by one friend of mine. Now still pain. Ha. Maybe going to have headache soon.

I overslept on the mrt while on my way home again.

My earpiece has been working like a protein recently, only functioning properly when its wire is folded, coiled, and bent in that specific 3D configuration. Two sides produce sound on a lucky day. Or else it will usually be just one-sided, after fiddling with the wire for some freaking long time. Sometimes nothing can be heard at all. I guess it's going to become irreversibly denatured sooner or later, so I got a cheap replacement. Thanks to another friend of mine. Lols. Still working fine, though I stained it on the very first day today! Rawr. But at least now I still can listen to my music. Heh.

Alright. Nevermind all the rest that I want to blog about. Weiqi and some other random stuff I think. Weiqi's quite fun by the way. I'm super distracted by the new jay chou album release!!

Yep. Coincidentally chanced upon 2 of the new songs. 伽蓝雨 and 超人不会飞. The latter is like a more relaxed song and .. doesn't sound very nice to me yet. Yet. 伽蓝雨 is probably the 中国风 song of the new album. I think this one's good. Most likely going to be one of those songs which the more you listen, the more you like. That kind? Hah.

I can't wait to listen to the rest. :)

热带雨林

2010-04-26T19:22:00.002+08:00

The wind after a heavy rain is amazingly cool and refreshing. Damnn nicee.

And I spotted a few orange-blue kingfishers at the reservoir in between khatib and yio chu kang today! From the inside of the MRT train of course. Heh. Up till now I still don't really know the name of that reservoir. A quick (re)search tells me it's the Seletar Reservoir. O.o Not too sure if it's the upper or lower. So confusing!

Have never been there though I see it twice almost everyday. Yeps. Same for that bottle tree park, until yesterday. Wahaha. Hmm. So I went there to eat. And yea. Bottle tree looks just like a bottle tree. I think I went there before when I was younger? Can't really remember. But haven't been there this 2 years.

Weekend homework was and is still untouched. There's bound someone's birthday everyday. Happy Birthday to both my grandmothers! Hmm. And then everyday's so tiring too. Feel like lying down, doing nothing, listening to music and letting the wind blow my face till I just fall asleep.

There wasn't any PE lesson for me today though. Hah. Don't know if it's good or bad. Aye. And then pre-SPA for chemistry. Obtained a super smooth almost perfect graph for order of reaction!! But no time to finish doing lol. Damn sian. Around 50% was left undone, unread, untouched. Get nice order of reaction also as good as not getting any. :(

Anyway. Just found out. 热带雨林 is written by Jay Chou! No wonder it's always been music to my ears. Haha.

冷风过境回忆冻结成冰
我的付出全都要不到回音
悔恨就像是绵延不断的丘陵
痛苦全方位的降临

悲伤入侵誓言下落不明
我找不到那些爱过的曾经
你像在寂寞上空盘旋的秃鹰
将我想你啃食干净

月色摇晃树影
穿梭在热带雨林
你离去的原因
从来不说明
你的话伤神经
我最后才清醒
幸福只是水中的倒影

月色摇晃树影
穿梭在热带雨林
悲伤的雨不停
全身血淋淋
那深陷在沼泽
我不堪的爱情
是我无能为力的伤心

This little sad song doesnt sound that sad though.

slept

2010-04-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

I think I've mastered the art of sleeping.
I'm so good at sleeping now that I can do it with my eyes closed.
Sleepings rocks.

I think I've gotten over that stupid B. Thanks to loads of sleeping. Shall not think about that anymore since nothing can really be done anyway. For one moment I thought I didn't wanna blog anymore. No time right. Nobody else really has time for anything other than work nowadays. Damn sian.

Nothing much to look forward to, too. I wanna go for the overnight bike hike with my ex-classmates.

Going off the my grandmother's place now. And soon will be moving all my stuff over to a new habitat. Though I think I'll take longer to get to school next time, it better be better be worth it. Hah.

I'm going to sleep

2010-04-16T14:39:00.008+08:00

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notice bored

2010-04-14T19:00:00.001+08:00

OMG. How are the one thousand students going to squeeze around one notice board on Friday!

黄昏

2010-04-14T16:31:00.007+08:00

PW results are going to be out this friday. Yay. :(

And these few days have been bad. I hope this is already the worst, cause I don't want it to go any worse off than this. :(

I think even the bone on my fourth finger melted because of too much friction generated during writing and copying. :(

~

Anyway, just watched this the modified version of 黄昏 not too long ago. It's kinda stupid and a little sick. But not so much as compared to ... erh hem. Okay. Just sit back and relax. I think it's damn funny I don't know why. Laughed till my stomach pain and with tears in my eyes. Lols.

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But I realised.. It doesnt make you laugh at all when you're really sad.

When you're done laughing.

Here's the real lyrics.

过完整个夏天
忧伤并没有好一些
开车行驶在公路无际无边
有离开自己的感觉
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唱不完一首歌
疲倦还剩下黑眼圈
感情的世界伤害在所难免
黄昏再美终要黑夜
--
依然记得从你口中
说出再见坚决如铁
昏暗中有种烈日灼身的错觉
黄昏的地平线
划出一句离别
爱情进入永夜
---
依然记得从你眼中
滑落的泪伤心欲绝
混乱中有种热泪烧伤的错觉
黄昏的地平线
割断幸福喜悦
相爱已经幻灭
----
唱不完一首歌
疲倦还剩下黑眼圈
感情的世界伤害在所难免
黄昏再美终要黑夜
--
依然记得从你口中
说出再见坚决如铁
昏暗中有种烈日灼身的错觉
黄昏的地平线
划出一句离别
爱情进入永夜
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依然记得从你眼中
滑落的泪伤心欲绝
混乱中有种热泪烧伤的错觉
黄昏的地平线
割断幸福喜悦
相爱已经幻灭
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依然记得从你眼中
滑落的泪伤心欲绝
混乱中有种热泪烧伤的错觉
黄昏的地平线
割断幸福喜悦
相爱已经幻灭

爱转角

2010-04-11T22:00:00.004+08:00

Just returned home from a really good dinner around ang mo kio area. Hah. It's kinda near to my school! Shall frequent there more often next time.

And, there's a lot of things to see everytime I travel on the mrt train. That stretch from bukit gombak to yio chu kang. More than the many many things just outside the window which I used to get very fascinated by. Like a memory lane... reminding me twice everyday. Why.

Anyway I've got a feeling my earpiece will stop working soon. Not sure how soon though. It's either it or me.

For now. Quickly get started on weekend homework?! Maybe after I bathe. And then I will take a short rest. And accidentally fall asleep. All over again.

~

我伪装着不露痕迹的
想在你身边
静静地陪着看着天边
骑着单车往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着

你往前走不回头看了
记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得让你孤孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着

心不再拼命躲
不去害怕结果
假设有个以后
你会怎么说
一直想跟你说
幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁
是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街
能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁
是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解
让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪
不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我
就是我的美

weiqi

2010-04-09T23:02:00.004+08:00

Okay. It wasn't released. What reliable information. Hah.

Anyway, chose wei qi for the civics elective course. No... wei qi is not a person. Not my ex-classmate. It's the black and white beads that the ancient characters play on those gu zhuang tv shows. lols. Already the one of the best choices around in my opinion. Others are either too expensive, not worth the money, or just lack the common sense. Shall not mention which. Hah.

And I just happened to watch a Sorry Sorry video with chinese lyrics. Lols. Not much link but kinda funny ba. Even more so just now when my Bio lecturer was squeezing through, against the flow of the crowd and started saying sorry sorry sorry. And then we added the tune to it lols. Plus some stupid action. Haha.

Another weekend's gonna be spent at the new home. Homework is really screwed. I wanna move in quickk.

Eh. Forgot about the other things already. Off to chat on msn and... songs. Hah.

Mm... ... never mind. Goodnight.

MC

2010-04-08T12:06:00.000+08:00

Wow. O.o Waited for nearly four hours at the polyclinic. An epic waste of time.

Why do I still remember the last time I went there... on 3rd December.

Well, maybe it's because I have super memory. Kidding. Maybe it's because I rarely take MCs ba.

Time to shiver in my sick bed. Goodnight.

X.x

(second post for today. Yay. I rarely do this. Heh.)

doesn't feel right

2010-04-08T06:55:00.005+08:00

I feel totally like crap. Even after 16 hours of sleep. :(

Right now. My throat is burning. And the diameter of it seems to have shrunk significantly that the inner walls are constantly rubbing against one another. I think that's why I can't even eat my bread. x.x

SUPER PAIN. walao.

Yesterday was one of the rare days I ate porridge for dinner. Fish porridge. With you tiao lols. Shit. Maybe that worsened my sore throat. Anyway, I won't be going to school with this awful throat that's killing me and a slight headache.

Waiting for the sunrise, before I go to see the doctor. The view is really magnificent from here. If I'm going to school then probably the next best place for it to rise will be at the reservoir outside the mrt windows, between khatib and yio chu kang. Hah.

Yesterday was another crap day too. I&E day. Hah. Honestly speaking, it's boring. Okay maybe not honestly speaking, since I can't speak at all now. Honestly typing. Fell asleep during GP. Don't know why I don't even find anything funny, when the person to my right was laughing out loud. Chinese, PE, Chem ... all too boring. Even breaks. I think nothing feels nice with this thinggum sticking to me.

Except for the feeling that was too familiar?

Don't know.

Going to have porridgge and honey for the rest of today. Only today please. And Zongsheng you better be right haha. Don't release the PW results today when I'm not in school zomg.

Alright. I'm going to see the doctor now. cheez.

icecream

2010-04-06T21:03:00.004+08:00

Ouh. my condition has worsened. In addition to neck and back aches, I think I have joint pains now, thanks to PE. When are the trainings gonna stop. Rawr. To top it off, I've received news that PW results are gonna be released THIS WEEK.

Like !@#$%^&*().

So I bought myself one whole tub of ice cream today. Have wanted this for quite a long time lols. Yep. So better reward myself fast finally for at least doing some math tutorials, otherwise I don't think I can find any reason to reward myself once PW results are released. Just got a super ill feeling that it's going to be a B or C, or maybe D. T_T

我想我才了解, 就算用尽了力气也未必如愿

Hah. All it takes is just one minor crap on the very last day to screw up everything right from the start.

Starting to owe chem tutorials like crap again. Hah. Econs is always the worst. =x

Oh yea. My internet service provider has been changed from Singnet to Starhub. So it's been going crazy for the past few days. Keep getting disconnected and super fedup with the modem. rawr. Like it will stay disconnected for 5 minutes every one minute of internet usage? And then I've got to restart it all over again. Very irritating. Grr.

And tomorrow's I&E day. No homework please.

Countdown to PW results anyone?

I'll just wish for a miracle. While eating ice cream.

Prepare for the worst, maybe.

Food

2010-04-04T18:19:00.001+08:00

Currently suffering from a horrible combination of back and neck ache, most likely due to excessive sleeping on the sofa. Somehow, I always end up ending the day with an accidental slip into deep sleep this few days, which was originally meant to be a short eye rest that should last for not more than... say 5 minutes?

Today onwards I shall have all the rest of my rests on my bed, regardless of whether it's intended to be short or long.

Anyway, I watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse (2004). Sequel to Resident Evil (2002) and prequel to Resident Evil: Extinction (2007). Just found out there's a new one coming out this year. When? Around A levels. It's always like that huh. Must have been a planned coincidence. A test of temptation, or perhaps just a better alternative to the mundane aspects of everyday life of the average student.

Some pseudo-scientific biological facts to spark minimal interest. It's not that fantastic actually. I think playing the game is better. Lols. Well but maybe, it's also because I was kinda pissed off by the low quality graphics. Haha. Oops. Should have been worth the time if the speeches were more synchronised with the lips and the scenes less pixelised.

Yea. And Resident Evil was directed, produced, and written by some Anderson guy. No wonder there's advertisement during GP tutorials. lol.

Have been spending a lot a lot of time travelling to and fro too. Renovation in process. My walls are painted. Yay. And the cupboard is also erected, without the doors yet. Air-conditioner replaced. There's still plenty to go. Chosen the roller blinds, wallpaper, cupboard skin, table, lights, etc. It's supposed to look nice. Hah. I hope it does.

Mmm. Meal time. My second priority after sleep nowadays.

I'm gonna hunt down some mutated zombies for dinner. Cyas.

Allergen

2010-04-02T23:33:00.006+08:00

I realise I have to stop my music player immediately once a song ends, or else it will just keep playing the next song and I will never bear to cut it off. Take the one on this page for example.

And. I'm starting to turn nocturnal again.

Everyday is the same.

Boring.

Might go back to games soon. Just had a preview of resident evil 5. Mindless shooting in virtual reality is a great escape outlet. Wait, why is virtual and reality together.

Anyway. Sleep is another.

你消失的一百天　我沒了笑臉　怕別人看見
我敏感的神經線　一點一點　沒知覺

泛紅雙眼不成眠　它跟著我一整夜
麻痺的臉　特效藥也　無解

才發現　我正擱淺在愛情過敏的季節
過敏原是對你的思念
我想我　才了解　我正停格在愛情過敏的季節
季節沒改變　是想念　沒斷線

我想我　才發現　感情塵蹣已佈滿了我的世界
過敏原是為你流的淚

我想我　才了解　就算用盡了力氣也未必如願
季節沒改變　是眼淚　弄濕臉

我想我　才了解　我正停格在愛情過敏的季節
季節沒改變　是想念　沒斷線

季節一直變　但我的心　沒有變
你消失的一百天　我沒了笑臉　沒知覺

习惯?

2010-03-29T21:44:00.008+08:00

E-learning is no doubt e-xtremely boring and sleep-inducing. With tonnes, or rather megabytes, of e-packages to be unwrapped and e-homework to be completed. Since it's already two days, why can't they just double it to four and declare no school for the week. Hah. What e-diots. Can you believe there's actually even e-PE.

Sian. I'm falling dead any moment. 3/4 more to complete tomorrow. Seekening.

Anyway. the best time to listen to sad songs is:
1) when it's raining and the cold wind blows.
2) in the night when it's really quiet and kinda cooling.

So random. Heh.

~

像种感冒爱情出现了忽冷忽热的征兆
才刚坐下有说有笑
一眨眼又为小事争吵

往常一样花好几天的冷战把情绪沖緩
我坐立不安怎么比分手还难

你是我的肩膀我的信仰
是我的温暖

有时候我在想
留在你身旁是爱你还是爱上陪伴

习惯两个人不见不散
习惯一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散不再坚强
对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床
才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了
我束手无策怎么办

总是习惯若无其事的继续为爱而繁忙
究竟是装宽容大方还是忍受房间空旷

我们总说时间到了就该懂得好聚好散
我坐立不安陷入爱的拉锯战

你是我的肩膀我的信仰
是我的温暖

有时候我在想
陪在你身旁是爱你还是爱上陪伴

习惯两个人不见不散
习惯两个人一整夜去寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散不再坚强
对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床
才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了
我束手无策怎么办

习惯了圆满
怎能又重新习惯空出的另一半

习惯两个人不见不散
习惯一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散不再坚强
对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床
才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了
我束手无策怎麼办

但愿我爱上的不是爱上你的习惯

table

2010-03-28T04:01:00.007+08:00

Previous song, zui jin hai hao ma, (currently still the current song) is so good that I've decided to add colour to the lyrics below. I can't even find any line that should be excluded from the lyrics. Hah. :(

Anyway, I've just got quite some new songs into my mp3. Yay. Other than those nice emo songs from dou niu yao bu yao ... some from 言承旭 are up to standard too. Haha. Addition of more songs. I hope the size limit of my mp3 player isn't anywhere within reach. Heh. And yea, 就想赖着你 has got some really catchy songs, which are now inside that awesome thing too. Currently listening to the theme song for that show, which shares the same title... there's one part he sounds as though he's recording his robotic voice through the fan. Hah. And it's a rare happy song. I suspect I started to like it only after some influence. Heh. Got to control myself and wait till after A levels then can I watch. There's like a whole list of shows waiting to be transmitted into my pupils. After As. Rawr. But I just can't wait. Heh. Accidentally watched the first episode of a few of them le. And the songs can't wait too. :)

Wa. And there's this yi tian tu long ji that's going to be showing on tv soon. It can't wait either. Have watched a few versions of that show. Doesn't look very nice from previews during advertisements, but I think somehow I will still find myself watching it.

Anyway. Visited my future home and room. It's in a mess, but painted on 3 sides already. Beautiful mess. A small false ceiling fixed. And I think the rest is still going to be under construction. Heh. I want the woody window grills off. And I just chose my table after dinner yesterday.

Woah okay. I forgot what I wanted to post le. Sleepy again. Time to sleep. Sleep is good. Very good. Have been doing nothing since friday up till now. Then it's E learning after that. Hopefully do something or risk getting hacked by maths teachers again. Workload contributed by Chemistry seems to increase significantly too. I doubt I can finish anything by Wednesday.

Econs. Thrown into outer space. Probably mingling around with its fellow aliens.

the chemistry of holidays

2010-03-21T13:04:00.002+08:00

Apart from holiday homework being oxymoronic...

The school poured in excess concentrated homework into the equation. Yea. Reacting with holidays and me. Clearly, there are two limiting reagents. The first one's me. The second one's the school holidays! Urgh.

And apparently, the Kc is rather low, and conditions supplied are far from optimum. Hence, as you might have predicted, the position of equilibrium shifts leftwards and yea. It got stuck somewhere there. Pathetic yield of desired products.

A little efferverscence coming out of from my head too. Water in gaseous state. Steam. Must have been the by-product of stress.

But funny thing is, it doesn't follow the Le Chatelier's Principle! Adding more homework on the leftside of the equation doesnt favour the forward reaction and it doesnt result in a decrease in homework by completing more homework. Why. Oh maybe the holidays are limiting, used up and so no more reaction can occur. Yea. that's probably the answer.

Oh well. His principle still stands. Hah.

Whatever. I've got piles of piles to clear. Before holiday ends in few hours time.

I wished they'd all undergo complete combustion.

used to

2010-03-18T14:54:00.004+08:00

It's funny and weird how things are totally different now. And it's sad how things are no longer what they used to be. :'(

Though I don't know why everything reminds me of what things used to be. Hah.

存在

2010-03-17T03:08:00.002+08:00

Hey. Recently heard this again. In my opinion, this is one of the two best songs from 5566. It's from Westside Story, if I'm not wrong. That was like long time ago. Hah. But time doesn't wear out the truly nice ones. Have been stuck in my ears for the past few days, and probably in my head for the next few days (or weeks?).

你說著　我聽著
像海浪打著　沙灘燒著
你的憂傷大於快樂
連彩虹都只剩下一種顏色

我聽著　你說著
像刀子划的　隱隱痛著
就因為愛沒有規則
所以心痛了死了回不去了

但是我存在著　我一直存在著
和你一起的照片仍在我的手機上貼著
愛會永遠永遠　你說的
離開我的時候　卻沒捨不得

我真的存在著　我一直存在著
不管是瘋的氣的我受著我緊緊手握著
傻傻陪著守著證明你值得
但我會笑著因為一切都值得

C4

2010-03-15T15:26:00.002+08:00

"You still fight for the weak,
that's why you lose." - Megatron.

Oh I hate that decepticon. What a badass machine. Was watching, or rather, was distracted by transformers for that full two hours, minus off the time that I had to go out to buy home food for my siblings. But somehow, those lines seem to strike me everytime I watch that show. Yea, this is already the third or fourth time. Not a lot actually, when compared to Secret. Hah.

*fast forward*

So today, I reluctantly skipped biology and chemistry lectures to attend some medical examination again. So tired that I almost fell asleep during the test. There were 3 different tests and I think they cost freaking a lot. Then I ran on the treadmill thing again, too, like a hamster on its wheel. But the hospital always seems to be a nice place to be in. Haha. Much better than school, I guess. At least there isn't anyone to scold you there. And everyone seems much friendlier in that miniature world. Apart from the nasty bugs and viruses.

And now. The nurse said I look pretty much like a suicide bomber. Lols. Would be funny if the mrt staff don't allow me in and start calling the police. I forgot which friend of mine, long ago said I looked like a cyborg, with this portable device on with me. And it's got loads of wires, with all sorts of colours. Red. Blue. Yellow. Black. Brown. Green. Say, which one should I cut to defuse the bomb. Hah. There's a blinking light and it looks like it's threatening to blow anytime. Haha. Kidding. It's supposed to monitor heart activity.

And so now. With all those uncomfortable things all over me, I have to no choice but to go Swensen's to eat icecream and chill a bit later. Three cheers for cold and sweet stuff. (:

Green Race.

2010-03-14T18:30:00.003+08:00

Just returned from the NUS open house 2010. There really isn't anything much to see when you've already decided your path 10 years ago. Except, maybe, meeting quite a number of friends there. Some faces are not so familiar anymore. Hah. Nearly couldn't recognise one of them. Maybe a few whom I walked past were my primary school friends? Hah. I don't know. Sad huh. But balloons were plenty and yea, most of the people there were like J3s ba. I bought a burger for lunch, like all my other friends.

Then it rained, when we were on our way home. Rain can be quite nice sometimes.

Yesterday was the competition, which was actually more like a race. Amazing race. Yea that sort. You get the idea. Open the clues, cracked our brains, strategise, plan the route and off we went, to the various destinations to complete different activities and tasks. Around Singapore. Heh. Much better than those science fairs and whatever. Though we didn't really win the thing, we didn't lose either. Haha.

Followed by shopping with my auntie and cousin. Bought some really nice clothings (At least I think so? lols). Heh. Kinda expensive. Was supposed to be my be-earliered birthday present. Thanks a bunch. (:

And tomorrow. Tests. Not academic-related though. Will waste lots of time. :\

~

不喜歡懷疑什麼
並不表示我沒有感受
看你微妙的變化慢慢不同
我不是生氣只是心痛

最討厭被誤會了
但越解釋越覺得難過
你可以說人會變
但不能說你會這麼做是我的錯

哭過就好了
傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨
愛是為了擁抱　為了牽手
不是為了爭吵　為了調頭

哭過就好了
痛都會走的
記憶有限　所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

越多美好堆疊的過往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷
要找勇氣卻不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某個地方

哭過就好了
痛都會走的
記憶有限　所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌　想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

coral sea

2010-03-12T19:01:00.003+08:00

Oh. The last day of term one has ended just ... like that.

Yep. I don't know what to blog about either. Still as tired and easily worn out as usual. The new usual.

Apparently PW results haven't been released yet. I guess we'll be kept in the dark for few more weeks. And this suspense doesn't kill. It prolongs the torture la. Walao. But I'd rather not get it back if the grade isn't formed by exactly three straight lines. Excluding F, of course. Rawr.

Craving for sweet and cold stuff. Ice cream. Ice kachang. Bubble tea. What else. The thought of it makes me.. I can't find the right word. Nevermind. Salivate. Or secrete salivary amylase.

Have been missing out a lot of things. The days just fly by. There are times I just want this year to end quick and fade with time. Despite knowing how much I will regret after that. Heck. I can't differentiate anyway. Lots of stuff.

Had a good long talk with the subject head of maths today. Yea but i didn't promise anything. Don't feel like. And don't like.

This march holiday's gonna probably be one of the most boring holidays ever. Maybe when June comes it will overtake and become first in place for being most mundane. Got to return to school on Monday. Then four days to rest well. Like finally can get to sleep all I want. FTW.

Well anyway. Tomorrow's competition! Seems to be a different type. Just wanna win something, then hopefully can add into SGC. Haha. Jia you to me, and my group. It better be fun. (:

And then it's NUS open house. Maybe Saturday or Sunday. Don't know how tiring the competition's gonna be. But anyway, I've got a few courses on my mind. Hah.

Okay. Dinner time.

*empties the last few coins from my pockets*

~

海平面远方开始阴霾悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终夹带一抹浅浅的无奈
你用唇语说你要离开 (情不在)
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱（给的爱）差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃(等待)竟累积成伤害
转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此（你我都）不够成熟坦白(不应该)
热情不改 (你的) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙碉如何重来有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快你说你无法释怀
贝壳里隐藏着什么期待 (等花儿开)
我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风 (面向海风)
咸咸的爱 (咸咸的爱)
尝不出还有未来

PW

2010-03-07T14:04:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my entire JC life... i dreamt about results. Lawls. Seriously! But it sucks man. Ever since somebody told me that we're getting back our PW results this coming week. Have been dreaming of Bs and Ds for at least 20 over times repeatedly, one after another, till the point that at certain times I can't really differentiate dreams (or rather nightmares) from reality. Super scary seriously. There was once I even dreamt that they smsed the results to us and yeaa. They just keep raising my hair and heartrate.

Don't feel like thinking at all but it just comes to me all the time. Hah. I think I'm going to be really sad if I get B or C or D, considering how much effort and time I spent on it last year. Till the point that... *censored*. Screw the OPs which screwed me.

Hai.

Not like the results will change or anything.

~

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

谁记得
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我还有想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱

谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

H1 Chinese

2010-03-06T06:59:00.006+08:00

:)

One down.

I think I deserve it anyway. So yea. Shall not be sad about it. Kinda expected long time ago. I said something very wrong during Orals. Hai.

Won't elaborate on my fear or narrate out how tense it was during the release of results. Nobody will want to know anyway. Haha. Skip.

But thinking of PW still worries me a lot. Don't feel like repeating the presentation thing all over again. The mere recollection of it makes me go Rawrrr. *pulls hair violently*

I think my class did pretty well. Didn't compare with other class or JCs though. Yet. A levels is such a @#$%^&*)!(. Hope everyone's contented with their results yea?

If things stop falling out of plan, maybe still can make it ba. :)

pining

2010-03-03T18:33:00.002+08:00

说了也没有人会懂。

向日葵盛开的夏天

2010-03-02T05:10:00.000+08:00

樱花飘过了秋天你我分开的季节
眼泪疼了无法表达
反复在我心深处的挣扎
伞为你开却被你收

踏在青色柏油路忘记走习惯的路
害怕了吗想念你啊
夏天的向日葵不说心事
伤感的字乱了理智无法掩饰

感谢你陪伴我走过了每一步
花终究会凋落没办法再呵护
这真的是一段很难熬的路
触碰感情深处我才读懂幸福
经过一阵雷雨太阳依旧灿烂
雨后的向日葵会安静的陪伴
你说过每一句会好好记住
在陌生的未来我会更勇敢

感谢你陪伴我走过了每一步
花终究会凋落没办法再呵护
你说过每一句我会好好记住
在陌生的未来我会更勇敢

~

Oh by the way, I saw F.I.R at lot one the other day!

half-maimed

2010-02-26T18:30:00.006+08:00

Yep, I found my GC back. Actually my friend found it. Hah. Thanks Christine. Saved me a lot. Maths is seriously killing, strangling, suffocating, screwing me, but I won't die. No way man. But at least there's one topic out of the many topics that still rocks - P&C.

And projects. Aw shucks. Hoping that all the CCA projects and competitions can be cleared soon. Although I'm sure there's still a long way to go. J1s quickly come in and take over the projects please. Lols. Really will free up a lot of time. I need a lot of sleep, much more than others. Heh. Getting tired easily nowadays.

I realised that I'm always complaining about maths and stuff that make me busy and stressed up here. Hmm. Maybe I will stop. Haha.

Everything's going to be fast and quick. I just want to enjoy and be happy. Still going to bai nian tomorrow! Yay. But I'm feeling tired again. *yawns*

And we watched Ip Man during the chinese lesson. Heh. Supposed to be for appreciation of the Chinese culture I think? Well it was quite a good show considering I don't really know any of the actors or actresses, there wasn't any love story or what, and there wasn't any nice sound tracks lols. Thank goodness I haven't watched it before. In fact I think this one's better than Huo Yuan Jia. Heh. Shall not start another movie review.

Can't wait to take back the A levels Chinese results next week. Although I'm pretty scared I won't get my A. I won't even dare to expect an A. Same goes for PW, which had a freaking screwed OP that makes me *urghhh* everytime I think about it. Still don't know how it happened but nothing more can be done anyway. All the best to everyone! (:

Since it's a Friday and I didn't really sleep much yesterday.. I'm going to rest now! Probably just gonna open up the sliding glass doors, lie on the sofa and stare at the moving clouds on the sky till the wind blows me to sleep.

开心就好。习惯就好。

RAWR

2010-02-21T20:30:00.004+08:00

Feeling super sian diao right now, and quite stressed up.
I lost my GC, which is kinda ex. :(

Always losing stuff at the wrong time. Zzzzzzzzz.

Can't finish chem equilibrium.
Don't need to start on maths le. :(

眼泪笑了

2010-02-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation, trying to put the pieces together. Justifying what could've, should've, and would've happened.

Or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on.

~

比想象中更痛你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折是美的

心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折是美的

你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你深深的

rainbow.

2010-02-18T20:44:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I noticed a rainbow just outside my window. Like so near, yet I can't touch it. I like rainbows. It lasted for like 3 minutes only and then it disappeared. But I captured it with my handphone camera. Hah. It appears very faint inside the picture, but it's still visible.

And that rainbow made my day.

It's funny how just one small thing can brighten up a whole sad day. Just like how a little thing can ruin a day meant to be perfect.

Maybe we focus too much on the small things and neglect the bigger picture, the bigger things that have came a long way. But maybe that's how the mind works anyway.

不屑

2010-02-17T00:22:00.001+08:00

There's a hell lot of things i feel like saying here, but I can't. Why can't I. Because I always consider the others before myself. At least I feel so, unless I accidentally missed out on some. But others don't feel the same. Never wanted to express this, but I finally did today.

No, I don't wish to quarrel with you. I don't want to question you back either, even though you contradict yourself all the time.

I've been wondering if I should change lock up this space so that all the unpublished posts can be posted, or just shift away.

There's something building up inside. Pressure fused with tension and some form of aching. Feel like just pouring and releasing everything out.

And I thought I'd get used to it. I should have grown immune, long ago. Why does one heart break so many times. How much further can it shatter?

事情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见瞬间就统统消灭
人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血悲伤也不会流泪

不需要有同类传染颓废
不需要愚昧的尊严
不需要去偷窃你的思念自我安慰

就让我伪装我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留最后一点点特权
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半地已经残废
那一半跟着你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐地瓦解

如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年
如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许我们有一天会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍

Time to sleep. Sleep provides lots of transient help. Goodnight.

不会

2010-02-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

Hey hey. Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day to all!

For this festive season, there'll be storytelling, since I haven't done so for such a long time. Haha.
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Once upon a time there was a Blind Girl. Everyone Hated her except her Boyfrend. She'd Always say to him,"If I was able to see, I would've Married You."

One day All of a sudden, someone donated the eyes to the girl. She opened her eyes Just to find that her boyfriend was ALSO BLIND! The Boy then asked her,"Will You Marry Me Now?" ..The girl ... rejected!..

And so the Boy just turned, began to walk away, and said in a low voice,"Please Take Care of My Eyes."

:')

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How sweet. How sad.

Though maybe some clarifications ought to be made. Complete transplant of the eye is not possible or workable, at least for now. Maybe just the corneal tissue? I'm not too sure haha.

Anyway, I'm staying up late tonight! Not being superstitious, but just for the fun of it, need to 守岁 to ensure that my parents live a long long life! Hahas. :)

Even though I wished they could be more understanding.

Looking forward to all the goodies and everything.

Have fun while you can, peeps.

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只好让礼物安静躺在我口袋
宁愿看着你跟他快乐聊到笑开
当用情两字不足形容我情感
心情都随你转弯

而其他情景问我耳朵
爱情都听不完
适合我们的从不是浪漫

你不会爱我的爱我明白
你的最爱那一块哪天我才存在
我不会爱你的爱受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待

只剩下冰冷空气陪我一整晚
寂寞却多到塞车根本无法动弹
一翻身我在半夜突然就醒来
梦里你的唇柔软

而其他情景问我耳朵爱情都听不完
适合我们的从不是浪漫

你不会爱我的爱我明白
你的最爱那一块哪天我才存在
我不会爱你的爱受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待

爱你我慢不下来没有哪一天例外
愿自己比快我会赶上你未来

你不会爱我的爱我明白
你的最爱那一块哪天我才存在
我不会爱你的爱受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待

不怕空白
我继续等待

knives

2010-02-11T21:30:00.007+08:00

I don't know if it's on purpose. I don't know if you know, but your words cut like knives.

背影

2010-02-10T00:23:00.007+08:00

I started to like this song within 3 seconds, after I heard it on Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao. Hah. At the fourth second the tv was switched off, and I wasn't even watching it. Maybe next time! But I know it's a good song. (:

And clearly a sad one too.

三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落如果你回头看

不用在意

说好的幸福呢

2010-02-09T18:52:00.004+08:00

This was the song I used to like from his latest album.
Then I didn't like it anymore because another person didn't like it. Maybe I'm too easily influenced by some people.
But then now, I like it again.

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢 ?

习惯

2010-02-06T12:24:00.004+08:00

"Sorry" isn't as magical as you thought it might have been, even if it might have took quite a lot to be eked out. No, it doesn't work all the time.

Even though many other times, the lack of it causes more disappointment.

I don't understand why I forgive so easily, but I just cannot forget the more I try to forget. It's hard to pretend as if nothing happened, nothing's said, nothing's hurt at all.

When excuses become routine.

Keep getting vexed over the same stuff over and over again.

Whatever. I need to sleep more. Haha.

我想我早就应该习惯了。

eureka

2010-02-05T22:59:00.005+08:00

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今天我做了一些很久以来不想决定的决定。

~

No idea why today everyone seems to be so easily pissed. Including myself, which is so not myself. Seeing things that I don't like to see. Doing things that I don't want to do. Urh. Thank goodness I didn't lose any temper with the math teacher.

Staying back everyday is like wow. Crazy. For once I don't even feel like being good anymore. I don't know why. I think I'm going to go mad soon. Haha. Maybe I just want to sleep and rest for real.

And something I realised yesterday. My own discovery! Heh. Next time I'm going to write a book on all my discoveries. Why. Whatever people want are almost always something they don't have. Funny. Everytime you say "I want this", "I want that". It's always something you don't possess. Doesn't anybody want something that they already have? Hah.

痴心绝对

2010-02-04T17:41:00.002+08:00

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也许我根本就没那么重要。

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"AJ, how are you feeling today?"

When everyone around you is shouting and cheering repetitively ... "we feel good ah .. we feel good ...", and you feel the exact opposite, you'll just feel much worse.

Just swallow and choke back on your tears.

Tired.

Of what.

I think I smell salty from all that beach cleaning near the sea.

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想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

blisters

2010-01-31T14:00:00.000+08:00

One...
Two...
Three...
Four...
Five.

Five freaking big blisters I got after playing basketball barefooted on the hot and rough court. I swear I'll be wearing shoes the next time, should there be a next time. Hah.

It's so painful that I think I won't be going to school tomorrow. I can't even walk.

Only Kidding!

Lols. Heh. I'm going to use this phrase from now onwards, instead of just kidding. Haha. Only kidding!

werty

2010-01-30T10:17:00.005+08:00

It's the end of another busy week. A lot of things have been happening lately.

I just woke up from a funny dream. At some super windy place. I can't remember what's going on too, but there were some people whom I know and many nice places that I visited. The ending's a little scary. Somewhat like a movie. Haha. What nonsense.

Have been spending quite a fair bit of my time on my eyes and shifting-related stuff. And of course, the chinese new year decorations for school. Staying back all the time. Hah. And I'm badly broke again from eating dinner out with friends, or friend, everyday. Chinese New Year, save me quick!

Recently, I've been trying to catch up on chemistry. It really isn't easy to do two years stuff in a year. 废话, I think everyone knows that. Lols. Econs and Maths is still like, hmmm. Maybe I should crash into JC1 lectures for those 2 subjects instead of attending those for J2. Or if they so happen to be during my breaks then maybe I can forgo my meal and neglect the growling stomach. Sounds like a brilliant plan. Hah. It's tough for a super slacker to transform into someone who wants to be hardworking, or at least a the minimal bit that I need. When everyone around you is 200 times more diligent than you and you don't do your homework, teachers just love to pick.

Talking about teachers. Something funny happened outside school, but I can't write it here, in case I might be flamed for being disrespectful to a teacher, or maybe even being a racist. Lols. Another one. I got to find out that my GP teacher was actually from BP too. Yay. I don't know why but it just adds on to the fun. He's really funny, the way he speaks and behaves. Alright. GP teachers are fun people in general, if not for the fact that they keep pestering for the submission and checking of GP files, which I havent bought up till now. But my new GP teacher's still quite cool. Haha.

New J1s have entered. Not sure if they've made the right decision lols. But any school's almost the same. Hopefully they'll enjoy their time here and not complain about everything. Even though I believe complaining about lectures in the dark or an auditorium in a suana-like environment is acceptable.

Then next week's college CIP. At the beach. East Coast Park again. Fly kites? I can't find my kites anyway.

Got to go. So long!

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Sometimes, it's really hard to make choices.
And it's harder to satisfy everyone.

为什么

2010-01-29T19:48:00.004+08:00

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为什么不可能，也不可以说。

不要问我了。问你自己吧。

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Perhaps the day that you truly understand will be the day you stop getting angry. And by that I don't mean stop getting angry over little things, because little things do matter. By that, I'm refering to things that once you understand or try understanding, you won't feel so angry about them anymore. You'll understand anyway, when that day comes, if it comes one day.

I don't want either. To call you childish or immature, because I know how it feels and how it felt. But if you want me to be direct, here it is. Honest.

你知道吗？

2010-01-27T19:43:00.003+08:00

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那一些埋在心里，很想说，却不可能，也不可以说出口的话。

~

tsal dnoces

2010-01-26T02:32:00.004+08:00

Just finish watching the second last episode of hai pai tian xin. Hah. I just realised that too. Next episode's the last already! So soon. :')

I don't know why, watching that show is a real waste of tissue paper. But it's just so worthwhile. Can't find any explanation for certain stuff.

A glimpse into the next episode seriously makes me feel like I want to, or need to watch it immediately. It's just sooo exciting. The suspense kills. Haha. But I think I can daydream about it for the rest of the week first. And yea, guess it's really time to go sleep! :)

Goodnight!

狠狠碎过却不会忘

2010-01-25T23:04:00.004+08:00

Freaking tired this few days. Heh. Just woke up not too long ago after falling into deep slumber once I landed on my bed when I reached home, which wasn't too long ago either.

One thing to be happy about - chem practicals are back! Maybe bio soon too. :)

Anyway, found this song not too long ago. I think it managed to squeeze itself onto 933 long hu bang. Here's it.

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他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

yes it is

2010-01-23T13:11:00.003+08:00

:(

2010-01-22T02:44:00.001+08:00

Great. Now even my mp3 player's gone.

BEEZEE

2010-01-20T17:58:00.004+08:00

Alright. Finally found time to scribble some stuff here. Heh.

Luck's not on my side I guess. Have been losing a lot of things. My brother claimed that he's down with luck too. Hah. Dropped all that he touched. Hah. Thank goodness he didn't touch me. And his teacher said monday's a cursed day. Zodiac tells of an unfortunate year. Horoscope predicted something similar too. I'm not superstitious at all, but apparently they all happened. Hah. :\

One of the most problematic stuff is probably the disappearance of mathematics worksheets. Lost all my tutorials and lecture notes for some weird reason, and it still remains a mystery to be cracked. Or maybe the problem lies with the one pressing me for the lost stuff to be submitted every now and then. Feel like asking him to go away or disappear too, along with all the my maths worksheets to a far away planet. But of course I didn't.

And my eyes hurt too. For some reason the chalazion (I think that's what it's called?) has grown back again, same spot, on the top of my left eyelid. That makes my eyelid heavier than normal, so I feel like sleeping all the time. Plus, these few days have been hectic, with all the homework, past homework, 2009 homework, projects, presentations, CCA, Chinese New Year decorations for school that makes me return home everyday like super late. No wonder I haven't got any opportunity to watch hai pai. It's already 3 days due. Wth.

But it's alright. Just postponed my eye surgery to next week and returned home from the medical centre. Yea. Hopefully it plasmolyses before next week so I don't have to get operated on or what. My eye's troublesome and seriously costs me lots of time everyday. Hah. But I don't have a choice. Got to see the design of my new room and discuss about it later, but I think I'll give it a miss too. Going to send someone off at the airport!

Goodbye my friend..